Hayley's 2 days in school

Hello #babyahgohgoh , you have officially become the youngest school dropout. 😱 #onlytwodaysofschool

On Monday morning, 我们兴致勃勃地一起去上学。And everything was going on so fine. You waved hello and smiled to everyone. When a boy in your class was crying, you said to me "baby cry" and you walked over to sayang him. #alwaysmysweetbaby

We then left you to be alone with the class as you were engrossed in one of your fav activities (transferring pasta from bowl to bowl). When we came back 1h later, the teacher said you notice we were not around bout 30min after we left. And cos in playground, when one kid cries, the rest follows, so they had no choice but to put you alone in a K2 classroom. I walked into the room and saw you at a table, alone, hugging your pillow, sucking your thumb. When you saw me, you cried "mama" and hugged me so tight. #heartbroken

Your papa and i had a discussion that night. Besides the crying which we had expected, we were more concerned with the disorganization in a class of 18mth olds and 2 teachers. With one hyper active kid and another constantly crying for mama, basically the 2 teachers had their hands full. The other ok students were left stoning or playing toys on their own. Not criticizing the preschool. We understand that it is simply impossible for all 8 of them to sit down quietly to even finish a book. So the situation was more like a childcare, looking after the needs of the kids, not learning anythingy much. 

We decided hayley shall start school later. Cos maybe unlike other families who have no one to help look after the kid, we have 2 sets of over zealous grandparents haha. Hubby also said hayley learn more stuff with them too cos i am very strict with the schedules and activities they have to do with her lol.

This decision was made not without a struggle. I have always been a perfectionist mum. When i buy a toy for hayley, i am upset if she does not play it the way it should be played. When i carry out a montessori activity with her, i get disheartened if she does not show interest. Thankew for hubby who has always been here to give me support and always say "hayley will do the acitivity right someday, just go along with the mess for now". Same for this preschool situation. I envision hayley learn more stuff in school, learn to be independent and socialise well with the other kids. It did not seem to happen in the class. I was super sad and guilty and wondered if i had made a right choice for her. Once again, hubby was here to show me the light! "Let hayley be happy as long as she can", he says.

So now, we are back to the same routine. Dear school, see you in one year's time. Hayley and mama promise to be stronger then!